As a frequent contributor on Quora I was recently asked this question:
What part of yourself do you not show to the world?
Not being an extroverted or an introverted person…just average and somewhere in between, I try not to be too transparent. Consequently, I have positioned myself as one who is present but not ‘out there’ if you know what I mean.
Try as I might, I have difficulty not worrying about what others think of me so I keep to myself a lot. I enjoy an anonymous online presence but still hold back the most significant part of myself; my deep and abiding spirituality.
Others know of it, but have never truly been a part of it. What is so abiding and precious to me is something I wish I could offer as a means of alleviating so much of our suffering and our human problems that are unnecessary. In fact, I wish I could be totally transparent so others could see how beautiful my spiritual life is. Sacred as it is, I protect it because it has taken so many years to acquire this depth of knowledge.
It is not as if someone could take it from me because is the very core of my being and nothing can alter that, but I am not sure how to reach into the hearts of others and touch them the way Spiritual beings of many varieties have touched me. My faith is my experience, it is not my philosophy. I own it as so very real and valuable. It is what I believe has the power to create a better future for all of us because it makes me think differently about myself and others.
I am so open minded about my spiritual pursuits that even some spiritualists warn me to be a little less open to any being who enters and wishes to discuss life and humanity with me. I feel I have a shield that protects me from harm, but a window I can always see through so I may never stop learning about the universes and those that inhabit them with us.
I hide that I am so comfortable with my faith that none could deter me from living it or growing more enlightened by its beauty and breadth. Odd, I know that I know I hide most of what I know, yet nothing is so sacred as one’s personal faith. I do not display it openly because it is by most standards out there on the fringe of beliefs…and adheres to none but what I am shown. If that makes me different then I am content to experience it alone until the day I can be open and let it shine out in total love.